between love and frienship

When can you tell that your feelings are already wrong? When you just cannot help but think about him every day and every night, is it still normal or acceptable? Is it still within the norms if thoughts of him intrude even when doing the littlest tasks? Or if it is not, maybe this is what they call “crazy little thing called love.”

                I have long been waiting that I will finally look up to one person with admiration. And when here I am, finally falling to its trap, I felt like I wanted to back-out. Well, it’s not really wrong to admire a person, especially when he has so much good qualities that are really worth admiring. But if it is starting to go beyond simple admiration, then the conflict comes in.

                The more it becomes complicated when the person is a trusted friend. He’s with you most of the time, because you have the same circle of friends. You’re happy that you can see him anytime. You look forward that you will bond with him from time and his simplest acts of kindness can make your day. His littlest actions always paint a smile on your face. The problem there is, you’ll never know if it’s something special or if he’s just doing that because, you are friends, and friends are there through thick and thin. So if that’s the case, you’ll get confused, what’s so special about everything then?

It’s true, when you’re starting to like a person; everything he does for you has magic on it, because love is likewise in the eyes of the person who sees it. Because you like him, you think he likes you as well. That’s the biggest misconception or mistake one can ever make. Setting the boundaries between love and friendship is hard,   but what’s more difficult is to deny and control your feelings, you try so much, but seemingly it’s unstoppable.

Is there really such thing as platonic friendship between a boy and a girl? Well, I think so. It doesn’t really apply to everyone even if most boy-girl friendships end up in relationships. There are still genuine ones. However, why do friends often fall into the trappings of love? Why does it end up going beyond the boundaries? Maybe because friends are friends, and they do know each other well. They get along with each other pretty fine, and friends are the ones you know you can trust, hence, it’s easier to fall for them. If there is an ideal person to love, it’s actually a friend, if it’s for the reason that you wanted to have someone who can stick with you no matter what and will always accept you for who you are and even for who you are not.

But in reality, if I will be given a choice, I will rather not fall for a close friend. Nonetheless, when the heart beats, there’s no stopping to it, until the only thing that you can do is to pray that God will guard your heart, for it’s a matter of losing friendship at the end. And as for me, I don’t want to lose a good friend, because it’s akin to losing your life.