Innersoul

Does God even remember me?

When He blesses others and their prayers were answered

Does He know that I have been praying fervently, too?

Does He know my hurts, trials, frustrations, and pains

Especially when I am tired and can no longer wait

Does He know that I cry in the middle of the night

Or I ran out of joy, too?

And stare at nothingness,

Feeling hopeless and lost?

What exactly are God’s plans for me?

I have done all I can

Been good to the best of my ability

And tried to wait patiently

Will there be an ending to this

Waiting, hoping for, and dreaming?

The answers yet I cannot fully fathom

Though my heart and mind tells me to hold on

For when the Lord’s plan I cannot comprehend

And if in the moment I feel His silence

Then maybe, He is preparing something for me.

And I have to wait

To grow

To be strong

And to trust wholly

That He knows perfectly what He is doing

And I just have to leave the rest, to Him