on my own

**** I just watched the phenomenal "Les Miserables" yesterday (though I know I am way too late!). I would say that the movie was indeed heartwarming and fantastic. Made me shed tears for sure. But of all the songs, this was the one that touched my heart the most. "I love him, but only on my own." I guess this song captures what my heart feels for him. <3 span="">


And now I'm all alone again 
No where to turn no one to go to 
Without a home without a friend without a face to say hello to 
And now the night is near 
Now I can make believe he's here 

Sometimes I walk alone at night when everybody 
Else is sleeping 
I think of him and then I'm happy with 
The company I'm keeping 
The city goes to bed 
And I can live inside my head 

On my own, 
Pretending he's beside me, 
All alone, I walk with him till morning. 
Without him, I feel his arms around me, 
And when I lose my way, I close my eyes, 
And he has found me... 

In the rain, 
The pavement shines like silver, 
All the lights are misty in the river, 
In the darkness the trees are full of starlight, 
And all I see is him and me, 
Forever and forever... 

And I know it's only in my mind, 
That I'm talking to myself and not to him, 
And although I know that he is blind, 
Still I say, there's a way for us... 

I love him, 
But when the night is over, 
He is gone, the river's just a river 
Without him the world around me changes, 
The trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers. 

I love him, 
But everyday I'm learning, 
All my life, 
I've only been pretending, 
Without me, 
His world will go on turning, 
A world that's full of happiness, 
That I have never known... 

I love him... I love him... 
I love him... But only on my own...