Part 2 of my Crazy little thing called love

I finally had the courage to tell him my feelings which have been kept in the closet for 3 years.

I feel happy that I did that. No regrets. People may judge me for being too frank, especially in our society where women are expected to just wait and make the guy do the first move. But I just crossed the borders and did something which is unexpected of my kind. It's only then that I realized that I am capable of so much, and when needed I can also stand up for myself, and fight for what I want, unmindful even of what others will say. This is not the time to cower on my own shadows and create my own nightmares, because we are the ones who make it hard for ourselves.

I may not get the answer which I really like. But honestly, I've braced myself for that. Right now, I'm just thankful that I've said what I want, and I let go of it already. No more hiding, no more lies, no more pretensions. I'm tired of playing that game. Right now, I can move ahead and go on with life. Moving on with no regrets is what I really wanted. And I'm proud to say, I've got what I want, and all it takes is that one brave act.

His answer was still indefinite. He feels the same, but he's not ready. That is open to interpretation still, but I don't care anymore. It's okay. For now, I'm contented with my lot, that atleast, he has that feelings. I won't demand so much and drag him into something which he is not even prepared to face. I'm not saying that he's finally the one, either. Someday he said he will be ready. If he's not the one, even if it's painful, I have to let go, but if he is, then that's true love and happiness for me.

And this is just what I can do for love- to be brave and to let go of my hesitations, doubts and fears, and even to accept that we may not be meant for each other, all  for the person whom my heart is beating for.


*And all I can say is, thank you Lord. :)
Finally, I'm free!

random prattles

Hi Miss! Bakit ang tigas ng ulo mo di ba?

Ang sabi mo di mo siya mamimiss, di mo naman matiis?

Ang corny mo minsan. More so, silly, foolish, gullible. Or ****A! Hahahah :D

Inconsistent talaga kasi yun si kuya. Kahit pa gusto ka niya, he won't ever ever change for you.

So well, is it time to let go and look for another? Dami diyan ate, for sure.

So at times like this, hold on to our Maker. For sure, He will lead you to the right man.

And kahit matigas and ulo ko, I'll have faith that  I will find my one true love this 2012.

Me to him: Minsan di ko alam kung bakit nangyayari to. Sabi ko nga kay God, Lord bakit naman ganoon, gusto ko lang naman mahanap yung one true love ko di ba? Pero sige, okay lang, challenge siguro 'to. Kaya keri nalang.

 Him: (laughs as he drives)

If it's not Kuya then for sure there is a guy waiting for me to love him fully and completely, somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight.. someone's thinking of me.

I gave him the chance, and am still giving him, kahit pwede ngang, AWAT na ehhh!

If he lets this go, ayyyyyy, I'm not the fool again anymore. He won't find someone like me, even if he travels the entire world. Kahit libutin pa niya ang Canada. Hahahaha! (There, I've given a clue) :D

So, let's see what will happen next. As Bo Sanchez quotes it, reconciliation will happen. It did happen to him and me, who knows, we can still have that second chat?

I'm not really hoping though. But if there's a chance, then I'll go grab it too.

**** I miss him though. Kaso hindi sobrang pwedeng ipakita. Kaya dito ko nalang ilalabas lahat. Kapag pwede na, maybe I'll make him read all these and he can just laugh over my craziness. I hope all is well with him. Sigh.... *****

out of my sanity

I'm gonna make revenge
Now is my chance
You'll regret every single mistake you did

You won't really like me when I'm mad
And it's your fault for making me feel this way
All of you, you make me feel ashamed of myself
I'm a person who is damn no good
Damn no good
Damn no good
And I'm starting to hate who I am.

I'm crazy
I'm crazy
I'm crazy
And I'm proud to be one